made it.

yes yes. I did it. I finished this semester of 5 classes and full time job of 40 hrs. a week. and for some reason, i don't feel half as accomplished as I thought I would. perhaps the lack of sleep for the last 4 months has gotten in the way of any satisfaction i might possibly feel. i am now convinced i am an insomniac. i have also grown to discover that my love for coffee is far beyond simple love now. addiction would be an appropriate word to replace "love" with. as i was looking over my bank statement (which i very rarely actually do) I found that I had spent close to $150 on coffee in one month. i was of course taken aback thinking, "no way! impossible, that ridiculous." then as i recalled the 2, sometimes 3 stops at starbucks i would make each day (usually 4 to 5 days a week) it dawned on my that yes, i obviously did spent almost that much on overpriced coffee. so I thought, MAYBE it's time to back off on the coffee a little. the next day i had school from 8 to 5 so instead of stopping by starbucks for my usual grande bold coffee, with extra cream and three sweet & low. i skipped. and proceeded to fall asleep in every single one of my four classes that day. SO, since i am just a teeny bit dependent on the caffeine drug, i thought maybe i could replace it with TEA. at least tea has like antioxidants or whatever. so i tried tea and it didn't quite have the same effect as coffee. I have now come to the conclusion that my addiction to caffeine must be psychological. soda has caffeine, tea has caffeine and neither of them give me what coffee provides for some reason. it must be psychological. this post started out about me being an insomniac. maybe my sleep problem is not from school but from coffee. duh. i told you i have a problem.