oooooootay!

alright. wedding in 3 months. yes THREE. where the hell did time go? wtf. i thought that just last week i was telling people, "oh yeah, we're getting married in 6 months!" holy crap now it's gonna be June. what do i have done? um......lets see i made a guestbook for people to sign. oh BOY! so much for enjoying a month off from school. what the hell did i accomplish? zero of the art projects i was supposed to complete. barely anything for the wedding me and josey are supposed to have in THREE months and...oh wait! I did manage to spend 120+ hours at a chicken restaurant being frustrated and stressed as well as NOT catching up on any of the sleep that I lost during Spring Semester. okay. please accept my apology for all the negative blog posts. i think i need a vacation. honeymoon, here i come!

made it.

yes yes. I did it. I finished this semester of 5 classes and full time job of 40 hrs. a week. and for some reason, i don't feel half as accomplished as I thought I would. perhaps the lack of sleep for the last 4 months has gotten in the way of any satisfaction i might possibly feel. i am now convinced i am an insomniac. i have also grown to discover that my love for coffee is far beyond simple love now. addiction would be an appropriate word to replace "love" with. as i was looking over my bank statement (which i very rarely actually do) I found that I had spent close to $150 on coffee in one month. i was of course taken aback thinking, "no way! impossible, that ridiculous." then as i recalled the 2, sometimes 3 stops at starbucks i would make each day (usually 4 to 5 days a week) it dawned on my that yes, i obviously did spent almost that much on overpriced coffee. so I thought, MAYBE it's time to back off on the coffee a little. the next day i had school from 8 to 5 so instead of stopping by starbucks for my usual grande bold coffee, with extra cream and three sweet & low. i skipped. and proceeded to fall asleep in every single one of my four classes that day. SO, since i am just a teeny bit dependent on the caffeine drug, i thought maybe i could replace it with TEA. at least tea has like antioxidants or whatever. so i tried tea and it didn't quite have the same effect as coffee. I have now come to the conclusion that my addiction to caffeine must be psychological. soda has caffeine, tea has caffeine and neither of them give me what coffee provides for some reason. it must be psychological. this post started out about me being an insomniac. maybe my sleep problem is not from school but from coffee. duh. i told you i have a problem.

OMG i AM alive after all!

Yes. I know. No postings made for.......let's see......perhaps 6 months or so. World's Worst Blogger medal hanging about my neck as we speak.

School sucks. everyone knows it. Hey everybody, let's pay thousands of dollars to be stressed out about grades, then not even be able to find a decent job after we get the degree, but still be in debt for the rest or our lives and then probably our children's lives too.

Finals suck. I think maybe I've gotten a total of 13 hours of sleep for the past 3 weeks.

Okay enough of my whining and crying. As my fiance would tell me..."suck it up and shut up." haha.

Today I walked in my room and realized that I no longer had a floor. Then my second realization was that I indeed had a floor in my room, it was simply missing beneath the layers and layers of ridiculous clutter covering it. In conclusion, my productiveness for this evening consisted of finding my bedroom floor. AKA cleaning up my crap. :)